Life Begins Anew

I just heard that it is going to be 45 degrees next Friday, and I then did a little dance and ran upstairs to dig out my seed packets to start planning my garden.  I realize that it is only the beginning of February but a girl can get a head start on things, right?

So far my garden plans include:

• tomatoes (several heirloom variety) 
• acorn squash
• butternut squash
• sunflowers
• sweet peas
• long bush beans
• runner beans
• several types of lettuce
• spinach
• cucumbers
• green, red, and many other peppers

These are just the seeds I already own and include none of the herbs I am going to get planted this year.  I am also hoping to get some money saved up so I can buy some fruit and nut trees for the woods by the school bus.  Yes, I said school bus.  It is something my mother is working on that I plan to fix up a bit more by putting a generator into the space where the engine once was to provide light to the bus and the horse shoe pit next to it.

Before we started work on it.

I am hoping that I can get even more planted this year then last year.  Last year I had to actually dig the whole garden, put in fences, add soil and mulch, and get the compost started.  This year I know what plants will work and where the best place to put them is.  I can plant stuff as soon as the ground defrosts and I wont have to wait till the soil drys so I can dig beds.  I am thinking about going to the garden store tomorrow to pick up seed packets and small planters to get my seeds started.

Also, in the spirit of spring, I have begun to clean out my closets.  I decided that I am getting rid of any winter clothes that I haven't worn this winter.  This way I cut out the clothes I love but don't wear.  After that first purge, I am going to actually lay out my wardrobe and make outfits.  If I have anything that can not be made into an outfit I would actually wear, I am getting rid of it.  I need the closet space.

In some final news, I have started a Food Diary using an App on my phone.  So far I have found it to be really useful because I can pull out my phone wherever I am and quick enter what I ate and then Its all filled in and calculated for me.  It is telling me to consume 1200 calories a day but when it adds in my work out I get to almost double that.

Cheers to Spring, An Organized Wardrobe, And Healthy Weight!

I Chose Life!!

Well, today at work I made up my mind about the job.  To help you understand my decision I'm gong to tell you a little about my work day today.

It started out pretty good.  My bosses boss was there and I finally got to go out "solo" and i was going to get bonuses and I had my goals all planned out....  Then I started to work.  We ended up doing residential and it would not have been so bad if I had been able to drive myself but instead I was dropped off and told to work at least one hundred houses and go over the route 3 times.  Again this was not so bad... if I hadn't been in the ghetto of Milwaukee, alone, without a car, for eight hours, in the dark.  I made fifty bucks but I the big picture it was totally not worth it.

Halfway through my day, the girls who had dropped me off called, they were supposed to be working the road next to me and they told me they had gone to lunch and wanted to know how I was doing.  I had nothing to eat and no where to go to the bathroom for the whole time I was out there and here they were going off for lunch.  When they came to pick me up they told me that they had left part way through the day and had been gone for two hours dropping of an interview person who couldn't handle it.  This means that if something had gone down in this crappy part of town, no one was around to help me.


So, I quit.

I felt completely unsafe and the payout is not worth the hours I put in everyday.  So it is back to job searching for me.  I found some copy writing jobs that 'i am going to apply for tomorrow, and I'm going to fine tune my resume and Cover Letters.

In Other News

I contacted my half brother yesterday, as well as my father's mother.  Both of them replied back to my surprise.  I was especially surprised to hear from my brother.  He had no idea that I ever existed and thankfully he actually has an interest in getting to know me.  I just got off the phone with him after an hour long conversation and I really found it amusing what we had in common.

Apparently I get my standofishness from my dad, as well as my laugh, my nose, and dark sense of humor.  After talking to him for while I can also guess that I get my quirky attitude, talkativeness, and bluntness from him as well.  I really loved hearing about his life and the rest of that part of my families life.

I really hope that my dad is not upset that I approached his mom and his son.  I just had a lot of questions that needed answering and I really wanted the chance to get to at least meet these people who are related to me. 

Overall, an interesting day.

The Votes Are In.... Kinda

Well, I finished my first week of the new job.  And I think that it's going to work out okay, maybe.  I can't seem to make up my mind about the job.

It is completely different then any job I thought I would be doing. I mean, advertising sales, me?  Pretty much the job consists of three parts: Events, B to B, and Residential.  When we go to an event we sit outside of a building, or just inside the door and sell to the people leaving the business.  B to B stands for business to business, which means walking from store to store and selling to the people working there.  Residential is pretty self explanatory, we sell door to door.  This is when I begin to hate the job.  when I really think about the fact that I went to college and got my degrees to become a door to door salesperson, I feel like an ass.

When I am actually out there, trying to get people to buy the advertising, it is kinda fun.  I look at it as a challenge and I love competitions.  I enjoy the work to find the actual sale and what we are selling is actually pretty awesome so at least I am not a door to door knife salesman, but I still feel like what I am doing is completely below my potential.

At least if I work hard and try to reach the goals set for me in this job, I should own my own business in the next year or two.  If I can push through and pretend to care long enough to make a good savings in my bank then I will be able to move on to something I truly love.

But that leads in to another negative of the job.  The ours are crazy.  Right now I am working Monday through Saturday, from 9:30am to 8:30pm.  And I am the first to say that if I do not start making more money soon, this will really not be worth it.  I have no life besides the job and everyone I work with feels that we are each others friends and that is it.  Going bowling with your co-workers every once in awhile is one thing, but weekly fun nights and hanging out on all your days off is another.  I really do not want that close a relationship with the people I work with.

So, I am still looking at other jobs, while maintaining an open mind about this one.  All I want is a job that doesn't make me die inside a little each day, and I am not sure if this job fits that criteria.

And The Winner Is....

ME!!!!!


That's right. I am the winner. I got the job. Finally.

I am not sure how I will do or if I will even like this job but it is a job and that is awesome. Finally, I will have some money and be able to start banking big bucks. Unfortunately, I will have to invest in some new cloths and other things for this job but what the hell, it was expected. The best part is I can put personality into my cloths and not become a drone.

Speaking of clothes, just got some super cute new dresses to wear to work!
Check them out!

and I also got some cute accessories to go with them....

I am super glad that I don't have to work at the barn anymore, too damn cold.   But this job has a lot of unknowns to it.  For instance, how much money will I make a month.  It will depend on whether I choose sallery or comission, and how well I can sell.  Also, what will the hours be like?  At my second interview I was there untill 9:30 but I can't do that every night.  Also unknown is my days off, and how many I get a week.

I am really glad to have the job, but I really miss Don and I feel like this job may keep us from ever seing each other.

On a more positive note:

Heading back to platteville this weekend to see my lovely lady and for a much needed escape from my family.  It will be good to feel like an adult again.  Then Monday it's off to the office for the first day of work.  Fingers Crossed!

Snow Again, And I Love It

You know how you have those days when even thought things aren't really going great, that world still feels like a wonderful place? Today is one of those days.

I have been working hard the past few months to start feeling happy for no reason and I think I have finally gotten there. Today, I woke up and I had to go out into the bitter snow to work for three hours outside. When I got to work I found that all the horses had been left in and I had an extra hour of work to do. After getting through it, I got home and the delivery person had been to my house but my mom hadn't answered so I didn't get my new phone which means another day of praying the my current phone could hold out for just one more day (please!!).

I then ate lunch, watched some TV, and got ready to work out. Things started feeling a bit better when Kim called to ask if I would work for her tonight. She covered for me the whole week two weeks ago so I can't say no, plus I need the money so I told I would cover it. After telling her this, I remembered that I won't have the truck tonight to get up the driveway, so I will have to battle up the mile and a half long driveway in my tiny escort sport.

Not sure how the rest of the day is going to go but, I am pretty happy and content for the first time in a long while.